But, at the same time, I watch this show and think Ohmygod. These people are doing in one month what took me a year to achieve and I suddenly understand the appeal of the Ranch and why people go. I remember, though, that I'm doing my own journey not because I want to hit some deadline but because I want to transform my life in a way that goes beyond just the number on the scale.
That being said, that number is important and this week I lost 3 1/2 lbs, bringing my total to 62.6. I am a mere 37.4 lbs away from 100! The idea that I could reach that goal is 2012 is becoming more and more of a reality. But it also means I get to have myself a mani/pedi this week!
I will say this, though: Watching The Biggest Loser has made me feel a renewed drive. To eat better, to exercise harder. I want to continue to do my yoga, of course, but add to it. I looked at the list of Rec Centers in the city to see what the ones near me offer, like an indoor pool and weight room. Some even offer Zumba classes, which I know Mama Marchand would approve of. This really is a lifestyle change. It's not a year or two of hard work and getting to goal weight (which I've lowered, by the way, after deciding that I was selling myself short) and then I'm done. This is something that I'm going to do for the rest of my life. Not because I have to but because I want to. Because I love the way it makes me feel, I love the way I look. I love my renewed energy and outlook on life and I want to continue to feel that way and just get stronger, faster, and become a better me.
Don't get me wrong: what I'm doing is great. What I've done is fantastic. But I know that I can always do more. It's not just about being skinny. It's not just about being healthy. Now it's about being fit.
Love from the ashes,