19 June 2012

just keep running, just keep running

Remember what I said yesterday about not psyching myself out before my 5K?

Yeah, so not working.

This was from yesterday:

Usual MapMyRun app

And this was from today:

Wanted to try out the Runkeeper app

Are you kidding me? 16 minute miles? That...I....what?! 

It's not a physical obstacle. I know that. I'm not only capable of ten minute miles, I'm capable of multiple ten minute miles. I could go into a long list of reasons for what could be going on, except, honestly, it's all mental.  It's not the weather slowing be down, because it's been pretty cool out. It's not the time of day, because a week ago before work I was running 13 minute miles. This is just me stressing myself out because I'm about to do something I have never done before.


This isn't about the run. It isn't about the distance or even really the time. This is about me forcing myself out of my comfort zone and that is a scary, scary thing. When I run during the week, it's by myself. Nobody else has to know how fast or slow I go (except, well, you here. And the people who follow me on Twitter. But, uh, other than that ...). But come Saturday I'm going to be running with other people. And there is going to be a finish line. And I, the girl who 15 years ago walked the mile in high-school and five months ago wasn't running at all, I am going to be gunning for that finish line.

When I started writing this post about an hour ago, I was honestly at that point where I was going to skip the remaining planned morning-before-work runs and not lace up my running shoes until Saturday's race. But all that does is enable the mental block I've created. You can't break through a brick wall by just idly standing by and watching it. You have to ...

Well, you have to run towards it.

Any suggestions for this 5K newbie who is maybe starting to freak out a wee bit? 

Love from the ashes,
Lady Lazarus

14 comments:

  1. This is totally normal. I find that when I train frequently, my times slow down. But then I take a few days off running before a race, and I have the excitment and the people all around me, and I usually have my best times. You're getting exercise and doing something healthy for your body. So just keep pushing through, doing your best, and if that means running fewer than 3 miles or much slower miles than usual some days, so be it. You may not be running a marathon, but becoming a runner is more of a marathon than a sprint. Good days, bad days; good weeks, bad weeks. You'll have them all. The trick is not to sweat it and just to enjoy the process of becoming a runner.

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    1. I was planning on taking Friday off, I'm still undecided about Thursday. But I will definitely be running tomorrow morning.

      I think it's just because I am so new to this, I want to do well, y'know? I keep forgetting the whole "it's not the destination but the journey" bit!

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    2. It sounds to me like you ARE doing well. I'm pretty sure the scale and your great, positive attitude prove that!

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    3. And I think taking Friday off and only doing a SHORT run on Thursday if you really feel you need to get out there is a GREAT plan. Absence makes the heart grow fonder and all...a few days off usually reminds me that I miss a good run. :)

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  2. Jill, you're totally correct. It's all in your head. Try to get away from the numbers and the time and just run! It doesn't matter if you come in first, last, run your best pr or your worst pr on race day. All that matters is that you cross that finish line. You're going to be awesome - now stop looking at the numbers! :)

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    1. Haha, I will try to stop looking at the numbers. I promise!

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  3. You are doing amazing!!! I think you can blame the weather today. The humidity has been outrageous and that can really slow you down. I have found that the running community is really supportive of one another and all the people cheering on the sidelines will propel you to a great finish!!

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    1. The weather wasn't too bad this morning, but okay let's go ahead and blame the weather ;)

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  4. Jill, don't worry! This is supposed to be fun. And trust me, it will be fun! The numbers mean nothing. Think about it this way, if you run it slower, you get to enjoy the race for longer!

    And yeah, I'd say definitely take Friday off. Thursday is up to you. (I'd probably take it off or go out for a very short, slow run just to warm up your muscles).

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    1. "This is supposed to be fun."

      That's what I keep forgetting! I think I'm getting so wrapped up in the rest of it, I forget the fact that this is supposed to be fun!

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  5. I was going to say the same thing about taking a day off. I don't track my time, but when I have I've noticed that I run faster when I did not run the previous day.

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    1. Maybe what I'll do then is skip tomorrow, go for a short run on Thursday, skip Friday and then do the 5K on Saturday! I like that plan :)

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  6. I concur with all of the others. Take a day off. Don't track your run or time this week and just take some deep breaths. The adrenaline and excitement will more than carry you on race day.

    With Team in Training, they always said, "The hay is in the barn." In other words...you know you can do that distance and run it well. You've trained and prepared. All that's left is to just run.

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    1. I like that, "the hay is in the barn." :) I'll keep that in mind the rest of the week!

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