Yeah, so not working.
This was from yesterday:
|Usual MapMyRun app|
And this was from today:
|Wanted to try out the Runkeeper app|
Are you kidding me? 16 minute miles? That...I....what?!
It's not a physical obstacle. I know that. I'm not only capable of ten minute miles, I'm capable of multiple ten minute miles. I could go into a long list of reasons for what could be going on, except, honestly, it's all mental. It's not the weather slowing be down, because it's been pretty cool out. It's not the time of day, because a week ago before work I was running 13 minute miles. This is just me stressing myself out because I'm about to do something I have never done before.
This isn't about the run. It isn't about the distance or even really the time. This is about me forcing myself out of my comfort zone and that is a scary, scary thing. When I run during the week, it's by myself. Nobody else has to know how fast or slow I go (except, well, you here. And the people who follow me on Twitter. But, uh, other than that ...). But come Saturday I'm going to be running with other people. And there is going to be a finish line. And I, the girl who 15 years ago walked the mile in high-school and five months ago wasn't running at all, I am going to be gunning for that finish line.
When I started writing this post about an hour ago, I was honestly at that point where I was going to skip the remaining planned morning-before-work runs and not lace up my running shoes until Saturday's race. But all that does is enable the mental block I've created. You can't break through a brick wall by just idly standing by and watching it. You have to ...
Well, you have to run towards it.
Any suggestions for this 5K newbie who is maybe starting to freak out a wee bit?
Love from the ashes,